Dear little me, I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry that you got to see the worst life could offer so young, but I promise that there is real beauty even when it doesn’t seem like it. I’m so sorry your sense of family, security, and love were stolen from you, but I promise you will find them again. I’m so sorry you were forced to grow up far too quickly, but one day you’ll get to enjoy giving your children the childhood you never got. I’m so sorry that you felt so alone, but one day you will know that you’re never truly alone and that you are so so loved. I’m so sorry that you were hurting so deeply that you chose to feel nothing at all. I swear one day you will appreciate every feeling you have, good or bad. I’m sorry that no where ever felt like home, but one day you’re going to find out that home is not a place but a feeling and your going to find the people that make you finally feel “home”. I’m so sorry that you had to bear the weight of burdens that were never yours to shoulder. It’s time to put them down. It’s time to let that all go. I’m sorry I can’t go back and make things better for you, but at least I can take solace in the fact that I know your future is so bright and beautiful despite the darkness that plagued your past. You are so strong and resilient. Dear little me, I’m so sorry for all you went through and all I put you through. Just know I love you, you are loved, you are safe, you are secure, you are home.
A letter to my younger self
